Stiffness

When I woke up this morning, I couldn't straighten the fingers of my hand without a lot of stiffness and pain. Even now I can't really completely straighten it out without it hurting. But it is a lot better than what it was this morning. I couldn't really close them either. It hurt for me to make a fist. The worst one appears to be the middle finger joint. That is the one that gives me the most pain, even now. But as the day went on, I kept on trying to stretch out my fingers and forcing them to open and close. So now, towards the end of the day, I'm able to move them comfortable and have a reasonable range of motion without pain. Its only when I stretch them out completely or close my fingers into a fist that I feel any discomfort.

I think the stretching really helped throughout the day even though it hurt. Probably also my typing on a keyboard helped. I forced my fingers to move against the keys that they normally hit so they had to loosen up. I don't remember there being too much pain when I was first doing it. Uncomfortable yes, but over time it just got better and I didn't really notice it today.

The dark patch on my right breast is getting bigger and it almost appears like there are flaky bits coming, but I'm not too sure. Its not very big. I'm conflicted. I know that if I put some cream on it, it will go away, but then I also know that if I don't, it'll get bigger and then I can show the doctor. I have an appointment with my specialist in 2 weeks regardless and I think I need to show him what happens. Not just tell him like last time. That is what happened last time. Waited too long, put cream on it and then it was gone by the time I went to go see him.

Aches and Pains

Bah, another day and another day spent fighting my ongoing tiredness. I really have no idea why I am so tired and why I can't just shake it off. Its rather annoying. I feel so weak for it too. Like I can't recover like a normal person. My joints are also really hurting. My right thumb for example is so sore as are both of my shoulders. The shoulder thing makes it difficult for me to sleep properly at night. I can't count the number of times that I woke up in the middle of the night last night to physically turn myself over. I wonder if it is just because I'm so tired that i don't turn in my sleep and I'm just a log? I have no idea.

I need to figure out what is going on with the body and how to calm it down. How to make me less tired. Why do I constantly want to be sleeping? Not to mention that bit of weird skin rash on the right side of my chest. I showed my mom this morning and she told me to put some cream on it. There isn't really anything other than a dark patch. No dry scaly skin yet. But it does seem to be getting bigger as the days go by. It definitely looks like the beginnings of the same rash as I've previously had.

Exhaustion

Today has been a pretty miserable day. The whole day I was struggling to stay awake and with it. I was so exhausted and groggy from the past week of exerting myself. Long days and not enough sleep its all catching up to me.

But I was pretty much a walking zombie for most of the day. Making bad decisions after bad decision.

I more or less slept until noon today. I was up for about an hour during the morning to eat breakfast and then I went back to sleep. It was broken sleep. Not very restful, but I felt a lot better afterwards. But by the later afternoon I was failing already. Barely staying awake. A bath later and dinner, so now I'm here. Typing away.

Hopefully I can go to sleep earlier today and get more rest than normal. Its been such a crazy week and I've been so tired. 

Tiredness

Today for some reason I just feel utterly out of it. I ended up sleeping fairly early last night - around 10 which is a lot better than what I've been doing lately. But in the morning I just couldn't keep my eyes open. So I kept sleeping. I slept an extra hour and a half which made me feel a lot better. But then at work I was sleepy again. I don't know why. I had a pretty active weekend and didn't really get a chance to rest so maybe that is what is causing this. But it seems so silly to be so tired from doing so little and only for a couple of days. I don't know how people have such long days constantly and I can't handle it a couple times.